God's kaleidoscope

The purpose of my existence is experiencing. Not doing.

I, on the other hand, am obsessed with doing and focus very little on experiencing.

God experiences through me. That was all he was really interested in. To experience himself, his self-creation, through the experiencing tool of the anandamaya kosha.

Doing is the secondary purpose of my (or any other jiva's) existence. Doing modifies the state of creation, so that there is a variety, a movement, a gradual sophistication and complexity in the state of creation. This makes the experiencing more interesting.

All my other koshas are designed for doing. The annamaya kosha physically touches the world, the pranamaya kosha energises the movements, the manamaya kosha tells what to do at this point, the vigyanmaya kosha defines long-term goals of action.

But these are all tools of change.The primary purpose of existence is experiencing.

Our sensual experience, however, is forever modified - embellished or sterilised - by our mind, before it is presented to the creator. Is this the experience he wanted? Did he want the pure input or the modified mental imaged input, for his enjoyment? I feel that he wanted the pure input, but by the sheer design constraints of the jiva, the inputs are always channelised through the mind and distorted. The inputs can reach the anadamaya kosha without distortion only if the mind is tranquil. And this is the only reason why I have to make so much effort to still my mind by going through the regimens of sadhana - simply in order to ensure that the pure sensual inputs pass through to the creator and he can enjoy the beauty of his creation in its purest form, undistorted.

Enlightened beings provide this clear path and are the instruments of God. Instruments of PERFECT PERCEPTION, mind you. That they do great good to the world by their actions is just a corollary.

Where is free will?

If the whole creation is part of God, including our own minds, where is the scope of free will? The thought that we have free will may also be a step on the unchangeable endless path, no?

Perhaps free will is relative. Humans have more free will than animals, animals have more than trees and stones think trees are hippies. In the bracket of consciousness where human beings operate, in the bracket addressing which all scriptures are written, both free will and fate are felt to exist. But in the biggest scenario, the unfolding of creation is a massive roll of the fate barrel following the primordial shove of free will, once and only once.

Dialogue

Life is an engagement between the senses and the intellect, between the edifice and the architect; a conversation between the executive and the legislature, the specific being and the universal being, between me and god. 

Everything that seems to happen is only the content of that conversation.

What a nerve!

Suppose my eyes were placed on the surface of my heart and only the nerve-endings on the heart's surface were active, what would I consider to be the limits of my physical body? I would be looking out at the cavity of my body, the various organs, the inside surface of the skin, and would presume these to be part of an external universe. 'I' would be limited to the organ of the heart and everything else would be 'outside'. 

 What we consider as 'I' is physically defined by where the sense organs are placed. The sensation of touch is the biggest culprit as it reinforces our idea of the surface of the skin as the boundary of 'I-ness'. It is possible to imagine that everything in the universe is also part of me, but the sense organs have been unfortunately placed and activated for only one physical body. Yogis who have enhanced their mental perceptions are able to receive sensory vibrations from any body they choose and understand the universality of their existence.